Since the birth of our Catalist model, we’ve been struggling with realizing Catalist as more than just a dream and also building trust in the method and our Catalist team members.
During Catalist’s early stage, we didn’t make it far on building our team’s commitment and trust. Some team members actually abandoned ship, leaving only both of us on board. The immediate idea that seems wise then is to find a form that prevents self-deception and outer blame.
We were honest to realise that something was definitely off within our system. Reluctance to speak up had shown communication was not functioning in the team and it suggested a passivity and lack of enthusiasm among our team members.
An unwillingness on our part to acknowledge these issues and our attachment to the status quo represented a shared delusion of its functionality.
Faith means believing in something you don’t know for sure is real.
Most of our growing days we sustain our life through our faith in something. We have faith that good beget good, we have faith that you eat good to get good health, that hard work will eventually pay off, we also have faith that in difficult times “God” will have a better plan, some of us even have faith that meditation is the quickest path to enlightenment.
Faith is what we have to keep us going in our lives.
We also need trust for everything to function like now. We trust that our children will be safe in school without us, we trust that the aeroplane that we are about to board will takeoff and land safely, we trust that the restaurant that we usually have our dinners at will serve safe food just like the day before.
I love to pen down the irony of this situation, that it seems easy to have faith in something we don’t know for sure whether it’s real and have trust in things far beyond our control. But for something nearer to us like relationship with people we know dearly, people we meet everyday, people we work together in our team, we seem to have more inner conversations and questions on whether this or that person is worth trusting.
So, the influence of faith is much less likely in a particular project which we have more control and information.
As the circle of concern gets closer to us, we lose more faith. As the circle of relation come nearer to us, we lose more trust.
It is truly mind-boggling for me until I found the solution for my team. I m inspired by the quote by Martin Luther King
“Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly”
So truly, as you continue to move further in, it is “me” that we do not trust most, and because of that we lose faith in everything that associated with us. This is our human flaw that we seek to surpass. I know that in order for a change to happen, something in the basic “me” structure of how we view things must open up to allow space for change.
I know I have to develop the faith and trust in my own existence first, in my body.
If my shoulder is permanently raised for alert threats, my neck is in panic attack all the time while my head still thinks he has everything under control while my lower back choose to cuddle back for safety, I know my basic structure needs to go through a process of restructuring.
How can we respond in faith and trust if our own body can not trust us. We live in fragmented bodies, the head always forward in wanting control, the heart is hungry for emotional approval and the belly is not aligned for confidence and security.
There is so much power in honestly to ourselves. With our Catalist centering practice, trust and faith can be studied in 3 stages :
seeing what is;
accepting what has been seen;
and changing the situation.
And there is a hope because we have found the tools for practice. Now as we settle back to ourselves, life can once again become a journey of great adventure. It’s good to know that we can actually be responsible to ourselves and we start by gathering ourselves and our body together in a unity of faith and trust first.
Today is a good day to start a great Team.
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